Exams, tension, preparations and aftermaths

Saturday, June 19, 2010 by B.H.
Sigh. Major sigh rather! I don't want to sound like a pathetic emo boy AKA long-haired-loser from now on ‘cause now I have learnt that I should always look at the bright side of every happening. Recently, I did the majorest (superlative of major) blunder by forgetting my roll number card at home on the very first paper! (I didn’t know my roll no. It was very long, more like some phone number) and the first word that came out of my mouth when I checked my bag and every pocket was something that rhymes with “Luck” and the other was that rhymes with “Land lord”, “gain-ford” or “main-chord” Okay! You get the point! Right? So I puked during the exam  What?? I do it in nervousness, I can’t help! But good thing, I ran towards the bathroom without even asking otherwise, it would have been havoc… And the next paper was also bad one it was computer and it looked like an object code (Computer language in binary numbers) to me, it went horrible again! Instead of grumbling stuff like, why me? and I’m a curse etc I looked at the bright side, which was “I didn’t puke that day! Ahaa!” :D (My baba is very proud of me :P) No really I cannot recall even one day when things went my way, the day I can call perfectly awesome day, (Except for the Economics paper it rocked!) Okay so, my first paper went like this,

It was a fine sunny morning, butterflies were flying in my tummy and my exam was 2 hours away. I was excited and tensed at the same time. So, I read the horoscopes to distract myself, I swear Gemini said ”What a brilliant day you are going to have, success is yours today and money will come worries will go blah blah" my smile broadened and wrinkles lessened. I departed late for the college, 'cause I wanted to look at all the formulas again. I had been preparing for that paper since like forever ‘cause mathematics is my nightmare and digits and formulas can scare me to death, therefore, I had to do the best. And I don't know how but I forgot my roll no. card in the final math exam. I reached at college finally, excited! And then I checked my bag and all the pockets but my roll no. card was no where to be seen! OH MY GOD! (Censored curses and abusive language!!!) They didn't allow me to sit for one hour until my baba came along with the card! I was very nervous. I puked during the exam (in the bathroom) my hands were shivering on paper, my handwriting was being gay. And if I wanted to press 3 on calculator, I pressed 6 every time them backspaced then pressed 3! I forgot the simplest formulas i.e Harmonic mean and Correlation & Regression and I couldn't believe it! And it was 3 AC-ed small room, smaller than my bed room (no hall :-O) and I'm phobic to cold (You must have read my poem Winter phobia :P). I somehow managed to ask in a shivering voice if they could switch off the cold sprayers! More like death sprayers to me! But others opposed. I was HELPLESS, FRIENDLESS loser, I felt pathetic! And it was 10th of this month. I never pray to God in exams! Because I think it'd be gaudy and mean to only pray in exams like when I need Him (the most). This time I did! But what I got was this baddest (worst) day of my life. I cried my eyes out after exam in my locked room to the point I thought I was about to burst and wished to God to make me die, I wanted to hit by a bus. I never want to die actually but I just muttered that I don’t know why Time to write another painful, nihilistic, emo and gloomy poem, I did and ruined it. And then the day passed - consumed by twilight-consumed by night-consumed by dawn like every another day. And I witnessed the new sun that smiled at me and sprinkled the hot and loving beams upon me, I hoped for better.

I have now stopped saying the phrases like prayers needed, wish me luck and stuff. And I’m not going to read horoscope again in my whole life and I shall never let my kids and wife to read them.

My 5 papers are done and 3 are left! (Five cats rescued and three to go :P)

Very gloomy story, right? What if it was a mere one leaf from the diary! The Book of Vincent :P Scary na?

Some people have started calling me “Chalta phirta bad-luck” and “trouble” etc. But no heed no encouragement for them!

But I now don’t look at the dark side, Instead of the dark I look for the light, Instead of cry I look for laughter, Instead of solitude, I look for friends, Instead of death, I look at life.
I have learnt that,

Blunders just happen
Faith should not be shaken
Never feel broken
Enough is taken
If the wrong road is taken
Don’t lose the token
‘Cause the road not taken
Think, was godforsaken

Miley Cyrus in her movie Hannah Montana said, “Life is a climb, but the view is great.” Whoever wrote this I shall love her/him forever (ahm ahm) If she is a girl or woman then I’ll love her more, romantically as well as aaiwain (Don’t judge!).

And “The Climb” by Miley Cyrus. That’s my song from now on, the anthem of encouragement and consolation you can say! (And I shall love Miley Cyrus for this song forever)

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

P.S I posted the same story as a comment on some related post I saw somewhere last night just to share the experience!


Jingle said...


three awards on the bottom,
Happy Saturday!

Anonymous said...

Do I need to mention? An awesome post this was, by an irresponsible author who forgot to take some important document to his exam. Great! ;) I am SO proud of you.
and the thing aint over yet, the amazing poet even 'murdered' his own poem. Cool.

btw, the lil poem mentioned above was really motivating, i'm getting it in my diary..
and do i need to mention, I LOVE THIS SONG!! It has been my best buddy at times!

Bahadur Hussain said...

Awesome post? naah! call it a noisy cry! Yes my badluck and irresponsibility! you almost called me a loser tho.
amazing poet :P ha! so not :D

and do i need to mention, I love this song too. and arn't you such a sweet kid :P Thanks thanks thanks xD

pH_the princess said...

have I mentioned I'm having a vocabulary shortage :P toba Careless :P
Actually it can happen to any one :P checkout it was my english prelium at school I prepared maths instead LOL I came to know half hour before the paper started but I did nothing but laugh at myself and gave the paper too *intelligent*(don't ask me how much I scored :P) And this is my 4th out of five Miley Cyrus songs I like :)
Am so copying the poem !

Bahadur Hussain said...

LOL I am rewarded with this 'careless' title =p vocabulary? No you are really good, don't worry about that khamakhuwa! And could you tell me how much you scored:P *pokes*. And sure thing! you can take the poem. *winks*

pH_the priness said...

Please except that degree you deserve it :P LOL Kidding ! umm thank you :) aahhahahaa :P LOL awwee told you it is a secret , don't remind me my embarrassing times *tears(fake ones)* LOL :P
Yeah I took it :P

Bahadur Hussain said...

lol okay I am not asking now. =P

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